If I ruled the world..

..then I would have decided that I should have eaten last night before drinking. I was suppose to enjoy a good night but I got a little bit too drunk and I don't understand why I just didn't sit down and continue drinking water. I got scared because I don't wanna be one of those who are really drunk because I prefer keeping it on the low so I can control my situation of course. Well, it was sad since I looked so hot in my dress and I only made it to the starter that was really good but meanwhile I was waiting for the dinner drinking water I got sick and tired of waiting so I just left. I dunno why I just didn't stay put and continue drinking water and eating then I would have been okay. I decided to be very drunk last night because I will work rest of the weekends so you guys know so if we are going out to do something it want be in the weekends. God, I'm still tired after sleeping for 12 hours and I'm still a little bit tired. My days seems to be not in order because I'm still taking my siestas in days and being up in the night and then I have to get up early in the morning. This is the worst and it's interfearing my best time in my life which is the nights. I'm working better then.

I haven't been feeling so great lately and I haven't been having these wonderful feelings anymore. Feeling more frustrated then ever and I guess this is my biggest sexual eruption and I really hope Quique will be here because this is a fucking mission! haha. The thing is that I'm just missing my best friend and my lover so it's just not sexual frustrations. Now when I speak to him over the phone it's not as fun since I want to speak face to face. I have it hard as well to find someone that I can have as much fun as I have with Marc, Quique and other people I miss.

It's a beautiful day today and I'm sad that I didn't get any funny pictures from last night. I'm very dizzy today but I guess the other people of my class are feeling worst. Hopefully I get to see some funny pictures because our group did a outstanding perfomance with Anders group and Ronny on the mic. See link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JJyMKxyTP0A. I had fun at the pre-party at least! The one who is singing is our Godfather Ronny, so applauds to you and for our perfomance last night. Sadly I don't think anyone recorded it.

I hope everyone had fun last night since not everyone was invited to a pre-party not that I was so bothered about it myself but are we twelve years old come on, it's so childish. I felt sad about those who weren't invited and shame on you who didn't. Okay, everyone couldn't come at the same pre-party but if I have a party I invite everyone since everyone wont probably show up and if they do -the more the marrier. When my parents leave the country at the 28th I'm going to have a party and almost everyone is invited. Maybe I should do the same as when you were young and had birthday parties and you only invited those people who invites you, then I know my guestlist. I might have my very own crazy bouncer as well. Thinking about how crazy they are about power and I guess most of my male friends when they are drunk would think it's pretty funny throwing out people out of my party. I'm going to admit that I would enjoy that as well since I am a little bit evil and I don't like everyone. Gosh, I've seen this people who are nice and polight to everyone how can they keep up. Okay, you should because that person might be your boss in the very end of this world and bla bla bla but playing fake and playing rude are both energentic taking. Don't bother is the easiest way and don't put any of your energy on these people.

As I wrote in my diary when I was younger, my cat is my only friend, haha, they have grown the kitties. But still really boring ones. Why is everything around me so boring? My colleagues from the work I had before sad that something always happens around me and now when I was leaving there will be no one with stories and something to tell. I have been watching my blogg and lately it have been very thin because lack of inspiration. My friend says I should go back to Barcelona now if I don't feel so well here but the thing is that I haven't giving myself time enough here in Umeå to get back in track working in the days and I need to take some responsibility. How I wish I could just leave to whatever countryand travell around but for that you need money and some thinking before. The words to myself today and to everyone else who are not happy: Stop feeling sad and pull yourself up because today is a lovely day as lovely are you. I can tell damn you look ugly after drinking and falling asleep with your make-up on or even worse if you get stuck in a party picture. There will be no more calls and no more missing for my sake even though how I wish to speak to some people who I can talk to. Hopefully there will be a cousy dinner tonight or something like that since I missed out last night.

The last of this summer. In the picture my street and the other picture is me looking fabously hangover, especially when you magnify it.

My house looking totally swedish with the flag and my dad loves details of light so we have some kind of stripe of redlight around the drainpipe. I think it has been there since christmas and that is so typical my father. One christmas two years ago we had the christmaslight in the tree til one summer one year later. As well in our bathroom where we have our jacuzzi we have some green and red details of light. Aactually I think this is everywhere in our house even on the lightbutton in the kicthen. So fashionable and trendy my dad is.

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