Masturbating more then ever..

The pictures that was taking this friday.


..haha, how I wish but I'm really busy nowadays even too busy to take care of myself. But tonight I'm going to take a bath in my jacuzzi and maybe light some candles to get in a harmony with myself. I was at a jobinterview today at Subway and I'm working this wednesday. I hope I can keep this job and work weekends so I don't go out on weekends partying and waisting my money. We haven't been partying too much this weekend but I'm looking forward for the dinner with my class this friday. That reminds me to get a hold of those studentcards that shows that I'm a student, a newbie. Anyways, this friday I was just hanging out with Caroline and Elin looking at funny pictures from New Year's Eve and watching a documentary named zeisgon or something that was about christianity and Bush and how fake everything was. It was a good one and you should watch it if you want to get everything explained instead of reading the bible. I do believe in god though but not in the christian, the buddha, or in any of those gods (even though the buddhism must be the coolest religion). I believe in my own god and good spirits because that is what this world should be circulized by. I know these gods are good for some people but thinking about how may wars and how much terror that are created by this. I remember when I confirmed and I actually did believe in god before til I started to read the bible and realize how discriminated the female gender is in it. Who ever came up with the bible must have been a great philosopher and author because there are some really good stories. Maybe I could wright my own bible starting now with all my stories I probably creat more chapters then the bible but dunno if it would have been as interesting. I think almost every younger swedish person have the same view upon god and that might be because we been fooled since young age that santa claus actually do exist and other persons. It's said in the movie that there are 40 percentage (I think it was something like that) of the people that do believe that god will return in their life, and hopefully bless them from this stupidity. How can you devote you whole life for something that never appears for you and then die still thinking. When I wanna die I don't wanna think and I don't wanna wonder. I don't wanna wonder what is going to happen with this world and I especially don't wanna wonder for a guy that might show up in my life because that is that I have been doing til I was 19 years old. Ask yourself who are a good looking girl living your best time in you twenties how many times haven't you been waiting for a guy. I'm doing that right now so I'm bending my boundaries but this is the last time. The thing is that I'm not waiting I'm just having a break from other guys and devote my time for my studies. I have to study tonight on a sunday which I probably do and then enjoy my jacuzzi. That is things I can devote my life for and a nice night sandwich.

God, I never had such agressions as now anyways are there anyone who know where I can buy a laptop cheapern? I need one for my studies in january in Barcelona and I need a nice room there

as well with one of those kingsize beds.

We got three fat kittie babys this friday but I think my brother is going to have two of them and my sister one but I don't know how they are planning to take care of them. At least they are lying in a pink dream right now. Our cat was a fighter because one baby came out the wrong way with his feets first and he had a vague pulse but she licked him to life. What if guys could do that, lick you to life.

This weekend I was suppose to go out partying as well which I did with my friend Liban. We went to a place where they play rock and eurovision music. It's one of my friends favourite but it didn't fit my taste too well. The people there

was so old and I met my friend's dad there directly when I arrived and that was kind of it. I felt so young there and the funniest thing was when Elin met her old teacher who just had been complaining to her before that young people are always at these kind of places even though the agelimit is 23. I think to myself that this is how it always will be at clubs especially in Umeå since we don't have too many clubs. I'm going to make myself comfortable at bars for students since the beers are so cheapern and you always meet some new people and not friend's fathers.

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