Doubts..

I have doubts about my feelings and my intuition right now, and I feel pretty confused but I'm okay anyways. We walked to our work today and for supplement the exercise I eat two donuts at work covered with white chocolate, supertasty. Everyone here at our company is off work for celebratin midsummer tomorrow, and we will be working, I don't really feel supersad for missing out, only for working til monday. I rememeber last midsummer, okay, I was having a lot of fun, I even made myself a midsummer wreath to put in my hair. The joy didn't last for too long time til someone made me supersad and my wreath was thrown out in the traffic of the big roundabout in Plaza Espanya. Now when I look back on it it felt like a movie scene from Sex and the city or something. Well, nothing is like a midsummer in Sweden, and people celebrating here are going to get a pretty similar midsummer to the ones in Sweden, it's going to be rainy and shitty weather. Not that I do care! moahahaha.

God, I really feel like this work is giving my body a bad condition, thinking about my arms, a so called mouse arm. It's even exhausting sitting like I do right now, having the keyboard in my knee, writing, the exhaustment of reaching the keyboard. I sound like the most laziest person, but if you wanna listen to something lazy this is it.

Sometimes when I'm going to tell a story, I let other persons finish it because I don't really have the energy to tell it. When it comes to meeting new people the worst I think is when you have to take it all over again, why and what you are doing in Barcelona, and then the whole story about your work, then I let Kicki tell them that. That is like the most boring part ever of a conversation, how many times haven't I said it? Maybe I should make some business card with my name and my work, and maybe the story, of how I got here. Because living in Barcelona ain't that interesting, the people here are, thinking about other nationalities then Swedish. I should try to be polight, and always do, but sometimes I'm just sick and tired, when I meet new people I like more to exchange funny stories, experiences, whatever, just not work and why I got here.

I have nothing to do tonight, I should look up more ideas for my tattoos since I asked for help from a friend but didn't get any. I have to much pains in my arms from writing so I'm going to quit now, next week I wanna go to a poolparty to get wasted and do nasty things, wokala. Sorry for being slow with pictures but I always wake up to late, still haven't got to the bank. Going to the bank is a week of work for me, but tomorrow I might go, I would need some help though, or someone who could walk me there. Sound like a dog, or a retard,.. whatever! Give me a sign if something fun is happening in this city next week, I have some plans, maybe you can join, just maybe! Have a good night and happy midsummer. Besito.

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