Am I a illusionist?

Do I not see the things I have?
Why can't everything in life be easy just for once
Right now I'm thinking so much that my brain hurts.
Yes, it's possible, for me it is.

Anyways, I'm having a quite enjoyable night, I wanna go to the beach and stay in the sun!! The only sun I'm getting right now was the two minutes I was standing on the balcony today. I look like a white trash right now, and I hate staying inside the whole day for a whole week just because I'm working. This is because I don't have any keys of my own, I can't move anywhere, and I really don't have any energy to get new ones. What I heard, the weather is going to get worse so then I can stay inside with good conscious and continue being white. I need to be tanned at least til my sister comes, more tanned then her! Because she looked more tanned then me in pictures!

Well, there's no stop for my bullshit talking, continusly, tonight I will try to do something necessary, like reading blogs, or something! hm. I was quite happy to see that Quique stopped by my apartment tonight, we see eachtother not too often these days because he is busy with his work. Isn't that a excuse when a guy actually are seeing another girl? I'm not The jelaous girl but since our relation took a slope I can't deny that I had those thougts.

I want to feel sexy and desirable, now I'm just sitting her in my crappy clothes smelling like wokala, next week I'll join you for party. I'm gonna go shopping as well, especially when my sister comes. I need to keep my thoughts distant for a while. Adios for a while.

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