The show must go on

yes, it must, I have wonderful friends. Thank you so much honestly. If I didnt have you I don't know if could move on, I propabably kill myself or something. I'm on the way, I'm getting better, and I will get stronger for each day. For you guys who don't know what happen dont read on facebook and get your idea because there is a long history, very complicated one. I'm confused today. I'm hangover, probably still drunk. I promise I'm gonna try to write more frequently and update with more pictures but someone has been taking my energy lately so I don't really had any for writing. I'm gonna get better, I'm gonna do more stuff. Right now I'm listening to my music and there is nothing that makes me more happy then listen to my music. Well, yes, there are, my friends as well. I'm at kickis place right now, takin it easy, we are suppose to go to the parc but the weather is shit. Yes, barcelona is very unpredictable with the weather so don't book a trip before you checked the weather. It was really sad because or friend tonia was suppose to come this weekend but because of the accident in iseland. The weekend was good despite everything, I'm sick and tired of drama, I'm a drama queen who are sick and tired of drama. Now I want to go to the countryside to rest and that's just exactly what I'm gonna do. I'm going to Honduras to see my friend and relax with him and get over this. There is not a need for therapy but maybe I need because I'm so crazy.

I'm listening to No doubt right now. It helps. Thank you world for the music. Bathwater is my favorite song. So here is my plans for the summer, I want my sister to come and hang out with me, and my family. I miss my family so much right now and I know my mother got disappointed at me because I didn't apply to the university. I want to go to miami this autumn and have fun. I wanna have fun for at least one year more before I go to study and be serious. I just don't wanna live in sweden and I don't wanna leave my friends. I don't know what I'm gonna do but probably I will go to study in another country, I always wanted to go to Japan. Even better is in Japan the poses, there is a website with the japanese poses and I'm always gonna do, or at least try them in photos.

Today I'm gonna do a pinuppa shout or maybe another day because I look terrible from the other night. Stop partying sophia. These times are not good for parties. I'm going to the kareoke tonight and I'm gonna try not to drow my sorrows with alcohole and with a little bit help maybe I want.

Don't feel sad for me, I'm goin upstreet not downstreet. I do good, yes, I'm sad right now but I will move on. Thank you for some of the best days of my life. You gave the best and the worst experiences and I'm gonna take it with me in next life, well, in upcoming life.

/the end