I had a dream...

and it´s silly, I mean really silly. I had to talk to my ex-boyfriend this night, we had some unfinished business. One of his neighbors were in contact with me and told me that she was worried about him. I told her I will contact him, to see if everything is fine, and surely I think everything was gonna be fine with him. He has moved to the carribean, I mean, how can not everything be fine with him?

I talked to him for a short while, it was a good talk, like good-old-times, but I´m afraid of falling apart again and getting hurt. Of course. I haven´t been able to trust anyone for a really long time, not that I don´t want, because I think you need people around you that you can trust. Without trust there is no love. I know that. Well, I haven´t been able to trust my ex, he has been saying he wanted to come and see me. Sure, he wanted but he never did. And I falled down in my black rabbit hole, where I stayed, no one has breaked my heart like that.

About the dream I dreamed, well, the little I dreamed because I had it hard to sleep, I dreamed that he would come to find me and asked me to marry him. He had matured as well. This whole thing is a silly dream, but I still had it, and it was beautiful. But I know you can´t be together with an artist, two artists can´t be together because they are emotional ticking bombs, so it is really hard. I already seen it because I exploded emotionally, I haven´t had these emotions for quite a while. I just never wanna get hurten like I´ve been hurten by friends and foes. I´m scared, but this frightness might actually help me to make a superimportant decision.

Bye guys.