Yesterday I said to myself to slow down

Yeah, a lot of things have happened. I went to Barcelona with friends having hell of a time, I got back, I went to my uncles funeral, I sang Eva Cassidy´s song fields of gold on the funeral even if I knew it was gonna be the hardest thing I´ve ever done. I have stage fright, I didn´t have it when I was young but I´ve been developing one lately which sucks. I guess I´ll just need to get back on the horse, and do it more often. And more than that, it was my uncle´s funeral. My friend Alex sang with me, thanks!

I also told a friend how I felt how I felt about our friendship, well, passed-friendship. I talked to my ex-boyfriend and told him that I need time for myself.

In three weeks my emotions has gone limbo, but I was so tired and frustrated and I really needed to do this for myself. Now, as always, I might not be writing here as frequently and it´s because I´m working on new projects (I need to get them started!) and studying a lot. Well, not as much as before, thank god, but a recent amount. I took distance from working too much, to give myself some time to do my things, grieve a little bit and it´s the best thing I´ve ever done.

Now, instead of putting my energy on friends who don´t care, boyfriends who think they can show up in my life whenever they care for it, I´ll be putting the energy on myself.

Last night I had a despedida party, to say goodbye to my friends cause I´ll be leaving this hellhole to go to Norway and do some new things, meet new people, focus on my studies and work a little. So, if you know any job to apply in Oslo, Norway, count me in, and send me the contact on my e-mail. So far, I found some jobs at the airport and I think it would be fun to work there actually. A lot of people passing there, things happening and it´s a active job! I need something to stimulate me or else I might sink back.

The party was great!! All the important people showed up!! We barbecued everything, onions, meet, vegetables, drank beer and I even got time to suck as a playleader. I really do, calling on drunk people´s attention isn´t the easiest thing ever so considering that, I guess I did pretty good. I also had all my sisters at the party, even the youngest, and she behaved, more or less so I am Impressed. Now I need to rest my soul, quite tired so goodnight.