Im a dreamer

And its pretty annoying, cause instead of doing anything my dreams are just paralyzing me with pain. Guess I should try to work with them, just like any emotion Im having right now, its always the best just to accept them as memories from them glory days when I was in love and happy.

Right now it feels like a time that never happened more then in my dreams, it feels so distant. Im quite and sad these days mourning my old self, but also saluting my new self, more daring and taking more chances in life, and probably more risks to bring myself to a new path in life. Starting with quiting my job, have one month more, and then maybe moving somewhere else depending where I found something. Yeah, Im open to any changes right now cause Im so bored and unstimulated and that feeling has grown even bigger since I decided not to continue glory days of being in love.

It was very obvious this weekend, had a lovely night with ma girls but when we hit the bar the reality also hits me, is this adult life? Drinking beer, eating cheese and sausace? Talking old memories from glory days? I want more, and I wanna be making new memories.