I´m no one's and everyone's

This is how my and our story ends and my own begins. This weekend I got a visit from my ex-boyfriend that I was together for many years and haven´t seen for many years as well. We broke up but had many unfinished business which we´ve talked about this weekend. We needed it to free ourselves and continue our own road in life, feeling complete and full with love. That is why we once again met and wished the best for eachother, it was mutual and complete, and all I could ask for from a meeting with my long lost love and muse. He has many times been my inspiration but it´s time for us to move on, to not forget what we have given eachother more then pain, what we have teached eachother and how we can keep on loving and inspiring eachother but on a another level, a more conscious and cautious one. When everything ended I found this video of the installation by Marina Abramovic when she met her long lost love and I could recognize our meeting in it, a understanding between two people that our relation has run it´s course but is still alive more powerful then ever.



I´ve been sad and bitter, I´ve been feeling lost and incomplete because I lost a part when I lost him, but now he gave it back to me, and I feel more alive then ever. This shows how important it is to have a good end to a chapter of your life, and I really hope I can find a guy that I can share the same understanding and maybe love even more if possible. Then again every love is different and we need to remember that, sure we do always compare, that´s how we make a understanding of the world, but we can´t forget that everything has it´s own specialities. The one I´m looking for now is more then finding someone with same understanding, but someone who treats me like his goddess and teaches me a lot about life, cause life is never easy, and if it is, well, then just enjoy it at that moment. Like I did this weekend when I met him again.

I´m no ones and everyone´s. I belong to no one. This is what Lana Del Rey sings in her song Ride and I can nothing but see myself in her lyrics, the broken woman who is finally opening herself to the world and accepting herself for exactly who she is, that is, no ones and everyones, in a bigger spectrum. Yes, now I´m speaking in codes again, but that´s just me.