Addiction

Yeah, I have a quite addictive personality and now you probably thought I was gonna tell you some secrets, but today my addictive personality have turn all my focus to one thing and that is nicotine, snuff. I've quite smoking when I was 25 after someone said to me if you stop now you probably look just as nice as anyone who hasn't been smoking, and I guess all the alcohole during my partydays had have done its job preserving me. No, honestly right now I can't write anything, and I guess I'm getting a bit lazy and unfocus lately just because I met this guy. Yes, it's always the same, I meet someone, forget about all my problems, well, that's just for now, all your problems always catch up with you, in one way or another. Right now the only thing I'm worrying about is quiting snuff, even if it's one of my few joys in life since I barely don't drink alcohole these days. Not because I don't like it anymore, I just don't like how it makes me feel the day after.

Yeah, now the only thing I can enjoy is a good coffee, which is hard for me because that is the moment that I share with snuff. So it's a hard breakup, believe me. For you who doesn't know how it is, let's just say physically you get a headache, dizzy and sucking your lip all the time, but that's is just the physical, the worst are the psychic ones, missing the only joy in my life. I decided to quit cause I don't wanna build my day around a addiction, I wish I could just have one every now and then but my addictive personality just keeps me going back. So wish me luck this weekend! Right now all I see is snuff, and worst is that every one has there snuff on the table, everywhere where I can see it, so it's impossible to not be exposured to it. Wish me luck!