In life or..

..in death there will always be people fucking you up or fucked up people. I don't know why but right now I don't feel like I fit this city anymore. I'm too loud and I have too weird jokes. Anyways, I was talking to Quique for half an hour and it cost me 100 sek but this was worth paying. I just love speaking to him since I have only boring people around me. Though I'm a little bit disappointed because he lost his job, I really want you to come to Umeå now you know! And I want marc to come as well maybe together. He said as well that he wants to start being normal and I refuse to work after a pattern. I don't know what he mean with that exactly but I know he wants me to grow up to a fine lady. This is so typical when you meet guys after a while no one can handle you and they after a while choose a average normal girl. Is it so fun having a partner that you can't have different discussions? Because as a friend of mine said once:

- The most interesting thing is what exactly is going on in a human's mind.

We are speaking about the dark thoughts that you never want anyone to know about, well, and if they are considered dark I don't know. I'm weird because I think that I'm standing above everyone, well, in some situations. Another word for this might be arrogant but I don't wanna put myself in that way. It is good sometimes when you need your self-confidence just for yourself because it happens often that you share. Everyone share emotions in some way. My arrogance is controlled and it's good to use for example jobinterviews and such. Another quality is my sense that I always need to be in control, control freak I told during a interview, but I need to be in control of my situation and that probably makes me confused a lot of times. The worst I know is when service is done by other people and it's the slowest ever and I can't do anything. By knowing your lacks in your personality is the best because then you can control it as well. The only thing I can't control is that when I don't like a person this person can sense it. This is the worst but by some practice and some maturing it will probably work out well because you will never be surrounded constantly by people that you like. How I wish because I like to choose my friends. I try, which is in everyones nature, to avoid people that eventually are going to hurt me. This ends up you sterotyped as a bitter person but I prefer being looked upon as a bitter person instead of being hurt -That is my choice. Well, At least I can listen to one of my favourite songs "Don't bother" with Shakira (see link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eL0xp6XIp0Y) and don't be bothered in my thoughts. It's a really good song but so are many other ones as well.

I just woke up and I can't help being enoyed because once again someone succeed waking me up. My mispelling on today's topic will be the worst ever because I'm so hangover and so tired. I knew it was going to be like this when I move back home, god, I wish I had a apartment as Madde. We were at her place last night drinking some beers and we were suppose to continue drinking beers at Olearys. We went to corona and it was okey for being the first time I bring my ass out to a club. I was very suspicious on my way inside the club and inside. I met jorge that I message two days ago to talk with. It was his birthday and once again I forgot about someone's birthday. I can't understand how people can remeber all the different birthdates and with my memory it's worst. The people who do remember must have been study it for homework. I'm like a normal girl in this situation because I only put the important numbers in my head like the 31st december. Our plans are as such that we are going to celebrate New Year's Eve in Barcelona, and hopefully my birthday! We should book the tickets now because I'm going to order my dress from one of my favourite sites http://www.asos.com/. In picture: It's my dress.

Seriously, they have gorgeuos dresses there and why not spend your money on a fancy dress that I probably will wear on my fancy special occasions. Not that these occasions happen too frequently here in Umeå but there will be some time like when we are going to eat dinner with the class. And maybe some other studentparties. Not that I don't want any food or booze on it because then I will be very disappointed on myself. I'm not going to wright anything important today besides that my parents are going abroad in October and then there will be a huge party at my house and not only students. If there were only students I would probably forget how I normal guy acts because god they are so horny. Well, so was my friend last night who were kissing my friend's neck, it is my male friends in a nutshell! They must be so happy having me as a friend with my very beautiful friends.

I'm going to eat lunch in the city today because I need to catch up times with my friend Liban and I'm starving! I just want one nice sallad because this is hard to get a hold of in my household. When I'm getting back home I probably buy with me some nice bread, paprika, pickled gherkine and some philadelphia cheese. I need to stop eating because I feel like a fattening cow. I guess I need this before I'm going back to barcelona but the tickets have to be booked now. I don't know what to do because I should focuse on my studies now but I don't feel so willing to do that. Okay, I had my first funny moment last night but who have told you to suffer pain in Umeå? I can do it in a different way. I'm leaving now and hopefully I find myself a better moment to write because I've been either hangover or too tired. My day is busy and I'm going to take some nice pictures fice oclock. Enjoy this day because it might be your last.

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