Es una promesa para mi

A promise I will make to myself is not to care about people feelings unless they care about mine. I have a hard week, well, no, month in front of me without any cash. I guess it's cool more hard for Kicki though that wanted to go to Sweden for her sister's birthday, I guess she will be alright but we both feel kind of empty and chocked. I will keep my silence what so ever happened but as I said this will be a rough month for both of us.

I wished to have drama and I got it. Now I just want peace but peace never seems to come around me. It's always something going on and now I'm poor living on bread and water, me and kicki decided not to pay for the tickets for the bus since we are right now eating for one person. It's strange how life can change so suddenly in Barcelona, there are no balance at all. I haven't done anything to affect my karma in a negative way but I guess it was too good to be true last week when we where having parties, going on nice dinners, shopping and getting tattoos. I got off work today, sad, I bought myself a beer at 9 oclock in the morning because the only thing that made my mind sleep right now and make me go in to peace is a strong beer, sadly but true. I'm not depressed I'm quite easy about my situation. God, you must be enoyed me speaking about this because I'm not telling what happens. I'm just going to continue about my easy weak spending good time with friends.

The first three days We went to Los Encantes and I found some very niec outfits, which I yet havent got to wear, for like 4 euros totally and they all fit great, really cool. I was drinking three days in a row getting to nasty mondays, for the first time, it was so so, and drinking just beers with good friends getting wasted. The weekend I just took it easy, my friend Marc had this party at his friend place but I decided not to drink that much and take it easy and watch the people instead, It can give a great deal of fun. Drunk people you can just laugh at cause they are so stupid at that moment, if someone should know I do. We eaten this great sushi at this place called Mutzi or something were you get to eat wook buffeé, seafood buffeé and dessert buffee. I got to eaten so much that I understood that even if I get myself one or two really strong drinks at a club after Marcs party I wouldnt get wasted, it would be impossible. I got home early with Norah, my roomie, instead...

Oh yeah, I got myself a new cell-phone number now 633220724.

This week I'm working though how I wish to not, I'm really tired and all the food we got to eat is two small atun sandwitches, if someone has their interest for going out for food some day that would be possible because I will starve, god I miss my mothers cooking right now.

Oh yeah, I was hanging out with Quique, my mexican friend, this saturday as well, we had a bless, well, we were watching the movie trainspotting over and over again, I was chilling drinking one beer at the bar he is working for Santa Monica. He buyed me dinner as well this sunday, I eaten raw meat with a pinch of garlic! It was so nice, the food is really amazing at Santa Monica, not too expensive, the most expensiest dish cost like 18 euros or something. It's located at Plaça Reial 12 in Barcelona of course.

Quique had one funny comment saying that my a transsexual has propably more prettier breasts then I do, that will say in plastics, that's impossible because plastic is not always fantastic. What do you think, does my breast need plastic surgery?



Well, I guess I leave up to you guys, I'm not in favour of plastic surgery but I do have a lot of friends to have to enlarge their breast and I respect it. I maybe will have surgery when I get older, that will say a lot older and after I had a lot of children, some botox, fixing my breasts or something like that. I don't know..... Anyways, god I'm longing to my bed tomorrow and I wished to have someone to talk to and complain about my situation. I wonder why no one wants to hang out with.

God, there's a epidecmic at the phone right now, we are getting a lot of calls, what happened did the whole Stockholm community got sick at the same time? I have actually been very healthy, well, maybe not healthy but just not sick during the time I've been here in BCN even though it's freezing, the nights are cool though.

oh by the way, I start knitting and I my project is to make a sweather. I was doing this for hours last night, a little bit more stimulating then sitting on facebook and messenger, but god I have such a pain in my fingers right now. Even typing here is a exhaustment, I'm going just relax right now, there are too much thoughts seriously. I don't wanna work tonight, I wanna hug someone, or maybe light some candles and some incenses to ease my mind because it feels so heavy. Play some music, that I can do, I'm going to listen to some No doubt right now.



Oh, A tips I got for you, don't you just love the music to the movie Trainspotting (And of course the actor Ewan Mcgregor). I will play that and No doubt this night, and I need to have myself a smoke and try to relax now. Take care!

Just a perfect day, Soundtrack Trainspotting - http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=related&hl=sv&v=WCxy-IOV6UU&gl=SE. LISTEN TO THE LYRICS. Just a perfect day, drinking sangria in the parc, just lay down in the grass. MMmmm, I can see myself there with a beer of course.


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