Though nothing can save my head today god, I'm hangover, my eyes are seriously glittering. I tried to sleep something today but it didn't happen, still having my mine full of thoughts, there are too much thinking going on right now, that's why I don't like being a girl, we are overanalyzing everything seriously. I remember once a friend of mine, a guy, told me this and ask me to stop thinking so much and god I'm so much nicer person then cause I'm more relaxed and chill. I just need to find a way to start relaxing, maybe practicing yoga, I'm actually going to start play soccer again here in Barcelona, I think, and I heard that exercising is great to make you relax afterwards. I haven't done exercising for ages, but I always thought my daily rutines is enough exercise, too bad it doesnt include sex anymore since now I'm completely single. I don't really like to put that labour on myself, nore being someone's girlfriend, I prefer dating, I haven't had a serious relation in many years, and I guess that when you are in your twenties (yes, im in denial, im 21 going to be 22 but I say 20, I'm stuck in that age) your not mature enough to have a serious relation. I lived my life already partying and stuff since I was thirteen and I finished that stage of life so I don't really know what to do now. My friends that are where I am right now are having boyfriends and getting babies, but that is so far away from me. No guys can't really handle me, well, they can, but just for a year. I'm so much work to keep pleased. Love is amazing though, I was so in love before and in a starter it was amazing but it always develops to something ugly, guess I just had bad experiences and bad choices of guys cause I always want jerks, some day the princess will get here prince but it will take a while. Next step for me, I wished it was going to the university, back to the university, but I want to travel to Japan, Asia, Africa, South America, USA, don't know where I will get the money from. I'm working hard right now but I'm earning like nothing, there will be no more fancy dinners and coctails for Sophia, more like drinking 1 liters San miguels at my place, alone, haha, well, not alone maybe, I just wanted it to sound so sad.
I had a great night, I didn't have to work full night cause the phones stop working, me and Kicki went back home and she saved a bottle of booze since before so we drank it all went out in town going crazy. I just remember flashes of light and a strange guy that was stalking us so we decided to go to sneak in to Quiques place to save ourselves. Now I'm back at work, with a pain in my head and in my eye, tomorrow it's friday so I'm staying positive cause this working week is soon over. I'll meet Marc tomorrow at 12, he is sick so I'm going to make him some soup, cause it fits my budget. Then I'm going right back to sleep, I'm so tired right now and that I even found any energy or my vocabulary to write here. I'm not capable to speak today, there are just strange sentences coming out, hehe.
Oh yeah, some last words, I made my mind what I'm going to do as a tatto, I'm going to do myself as a pinupp. It's going to be so nice, first I have to find a artist that can make the draw of me looking like a pinupp, I'm thinking about doing it next week if I get to do it for free. It's going to be amazing with a lot of colors, propably on my right thigh on the side, it's going to be so pretty! I wonder if it hurts much there, oh and this pinupp is going to hold a cigarette and a drink with a text saying just a perfect day, just like the song from trainspotting. The thing is that I remeber myself last summer, sitting at my balcony, smoking a cigarette and drinking a beer and I never felt that relaxed, it was a totally different stage of mind and I was feeling so good at that moment. I want to remind myself how I should feel, just easy, calm, since it's so hard for me.
I'm taking a break now from writing, propably I'm going to try to start knitting, I got some pains in my fingers last time so I haven't done that much and I who was suppose, it was kickis directions, to finish my sweather within a week, this will take ages I promise you. No, not ages cause I want to wear as soon as possible, I put up pictures of it and the draw of my tatto and the result when I get my new digital camera, cause I'm getting a new one, OH YEAH!
I love this birds as well, they are pretty cool for making my other tatto, its going to be in color though, I want to do them blue in Japanese style on my back, a bigger one, I'm so looking forward to of innocence on my body. I like though not having any piercings or tattoos but I really want to do these one. Oh I found another funny picture that I made at work when I was really bored, well, I like doing lists as well, and I like having a organized life. Guess I got that from my friend Anna, cause I remember we always made lists of everything, boys, shop-lists, just different things. hehe.
Observe, that I wrote on my shopping list, buy HOT underwear, haha. Guess someone had a hot date that night, no, I didnt, I just love wearing hot underwear cause it makes you feel so good even though your are wearing a pair of softpants and t-shirt. That's what I'm wearing the whole weeks when I'm working, it's so nice, and at home as well. It swould be fun to put up pictures of my daily outfits, it's kind of scary how I look when I'm working cause I don't really care how I look, haha. Scary hormonell Sophia, hormonell monster is what I'm right now. No, i can say I'm pretty pretty without makeup. Just watch this picture.
This was taking last summer in Barcelona, the top I'm wearing is made by my mexican Quique.
I don't know what happened to me that night cause it looks like I haven't slept anything.
Well, now I'm going to end this chapter, I'm so hungry and we only have popcorn and no water cause the machine doesnt work, I'm so thirsty! As kicki says, it's like some kind of black hole when your hangover in your stomach cause you are always hungry. Guys, take care and I'm going to take better care of myself. Adiosis mis amigos!
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