Someone told me

Well, right now in Mexico city, I arrived two days ago and it's really different from what I expected. From what I read in the newspaper, between all the mess, it's a really beautiful city. I have not got to see so much yet besides the center and Kike's house. My mother was telling my every day about what she read in the news about Mexico, yes, you need to be careful but you need to be careful everywhere. Yes, you will encounter bad people but you will meet this people everywhere. I have an eye, an good eye, to see where it is going but sometimes I wonder if my girlish analysis feature takes over. Everyone knows that we analyze in to the smallest little lite detail, and many times it drives the woman mad. I hope I'm not getting there in the end but as I explained before some people can bring out the worst out of me. Someone told me I will be better of by myself, and sometimes this phrase gives me second thoughts, quite often. Whatever, now I'm gonna stop speculating because I guess you get just as tired as I do.

My plan is not so great so far, I might get a job here and, if I understood it correct, it's as a hostess for different events. I don't know so much yet but tomorrow I will know more. I just know I'm gonna work with many different nationalities and I need therefor (I'm going to) to improve my Spanish. It's okay so far, but not close to how I want it to be. I don't feel like I can dedicate myself to learning Spanish right now, where is the control of my mind? How do I do it? How do you dedicate yourself to something? I guess I'm a little bit lost but that is a start on my journey. How can you not feel lost in life and the love that comes with it? I need to stay focuse but every time I get there I'm tripping. If someone has any advices please tell m. I'm not in for looking meaning of life and god, stuff like that you know, I just wonder to get in balance in life.

Bueno, we will see where this trip takes me and what I will realize on my way. I guess I should not speak and judge too fast, and stop over-analyze and relax.

Though, when I try my thoughts always bring me back to one thing, what was I thinking?

Right now I just wanna get out of here and go with my friends and have fun (I miss you kicki, and Frida, Mikey, Laura, Johnny, and everyone!). If you are in Mexico city Holla back at me because I'm gonna be more then happy to get my own life here. Now I'm going back to my joy, more or less, a book by Marian keyes in Spanish! It was harder to understand every single word then I thought it was going to be, but maybe one day soon, I will. Love to my friends, and hugs for the rest.