Guess who's back?

Back again, Sophia is back, tell your friends. I was out in the jungle in the southern of Mexico, well, according to Kike it was not really jungle but according to me it's jungle. Not that I have a lot to compare with besides the rainforest of Honduras. I gave myself a break from my studies while there so this mean I have to study my ass of while here in D.F.

I've been having a crisis as well. First I thought I was just in a bad mood because I was in my days (too much information? well, you can just skip reading my blog). When I was young, I never had this problems. Why is it that when your growing older your growing in to a bitter old hag. Anyways, I now know that it was partely because I was in my days and because I have feelings of being locked, it's not always easy to move around in D.F without a car. Excuses, Excuses, I just need to change my way of thinking (..just) and as well move myself around. I expect it will be different when I will be working as well.

Studying on distance has been a little bit boring, I have a lot to do and I barely don't see any people. I miss having a class but then on the other side I get time to travel and while on meet new people. However, I yet don't feel comfortable with speaking spanish all the time, especially in times of crisis like this one. This have led to that I locked myself and only I can unlock myself. I'm limiting myself and I can't do it anymore. I can't be afriad anymore. I'm living in a dangerous city but it's not the city that is killing me right now, it's myself.

So, over to our trip. We left to meet a friend of ours Karolina but she had left to go to the north of mexico. We decided to occupy her house anyways for at least 1-2 days. Then I had it with the mosquitos and we checked in to a hotel which thanks to a friend of Karolina, we only had to pay 50 swedish crones to stay in. I was exhausted all the time because there were no comfties like warm water and fresh bed. I asked Kike if he thinks I could last in the jungle and his respond was no, defintely not. I don't think so either because the mosquitos would probably give me a huge lack of blood (especially during menstruation, just think about it! They were mutants as well!). Overall, I liked it for a couple of days and I'm impressed that Karolina and Joel have lived there for quite a while. I wouldn't say I'm pure posh, more like a posh hippie. I've been living without comfties, computer, television and all that, no problems. However, now I had of it and I wanna have my apartment with my stuff organized. Not that I'm in a need of the newest technical stuff but just more a place where I can relax, and call home. I haven't felt at home for years, sadly but true. I don't know where my home is and I don't know where it's gonna be. I just now I wanna live close to the sea and away from the mosquitos. I need to go back to hours of studying, wish me luck! Pictures from Palenque coming up soon, maybe even tonight. Kisses & Hugs.

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