Yes, had some days of sickness and Im still trying to get fully restored, still dont have that apetite for food or life, and I guess food and energy goes hand in hand. Need to breake that chain pretty soon. And I feel so childish, when the solution is so easy but Im so stubborn, nothing tastes particularly good, besides blueberries, its all I have been eating lately.
Well, besides days of pain and restlessness, I came to be aware that its my second week without nicotine and Im so proud. Been snuffing (u know those small "smurf dipers" we call snus in Sweden and contains hell lot of more nicotine then cigarettes) not for long time, but Im a good-old-days smoker, and a sucker for adrenaline kicks. I knew when I got myself into this, that it is probably a bad idea but I couldnt restrain it. That is some bad dicipline I have, but I will work on it. Im not completely free yet, but I just had a feeling of calmness reaching me, not feeling the need of adrenaline and nicotine the first thing in the morning. There gotta be a better ways to find those kicks, Im sure!
From now on, I will work on my dicipline and find things I can be proud of, you should too! Small and big things, whatever matters for you in life!
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