Anxiety is back, not as bad at it was before so surely I can work through this. The worse part is me isolating myself because I have no interest to talk to people. Hopefully its just temporary premenstrual stage, never had such a difficult one before though.
As well I have been stressed out over me being unemployed in just about one week and not having any real plan. Just ideas about things I wanna do, but every idea seems to get stuck when I feel the anxiety. Its like Im making my own prison, Im my worse enemy.
Remember my friend told me "while them real smarts are troubling with doubts, the idiots are taking over the world" which is so true. I never felt particularly smart, never had any grown ups to make me believe in myself. Im 28 goin to be 29 and still troubling with it. Its like every time I get this anxiety, it hits me right back to my doubts. System lockdown.
Probably I will hit some yoga today or whatever to release my tensions, but exercise has never been a dealbreaker for me, sure it helps in these moments. Just wish I had a recipe for how to deal with ma anxiety. Guess I just have to work with it, and not focus to much on it, and letting it control my life, easier said then done.
Now Im gonna make a walk, well, actually I hurry to plant some springflowers before the cold hit the ground. Looks like it already did, everything happened so fast.
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