Closing a chapter in my life

because tomorrow Im going back to Sweden for a while to sort out my life. I feel a little bit stressed and I felt sick this morning. I guess it's my nerves. I've lived in Barcelona for 3 years so going back for me is quite a change talking about the society and the hours. Probably I will keep on having my siesta because I like it so much but then again it want work over there. I'm not having any expectations but I already applied for a cooking and bartender course in Gothenburg. I know now that I don't wanna live in my hometown so at least I realized some things on my way. Probably I will live in a cool place with my farm of animals and plants talking about the far-away-future.

I got here because I was lost in life and bored I guess but I learned spanish and I know now for sure that I wanna write and learn more languages. One day I even might write my book of excuses or a book with collections of experiences from Barcelona. There happened some kind of sicko stuff here that I haven't told everyone, yet. Then again I don't know if I wanna open myself like a book, and my life here haven't been that interesting.

I need to wake up in a couple of hours because my family agreed that being 4 hours earlier to the flight is better then 2 hours. I'm tired but I can't really sleep. I want company with hugs and kisses and not by just anyone. I'm just wondering since when I start getting so depended on someone? Then again if you have been with eachother almost everyday and you take your time apart it's gonna feel empty, it's kind of logic and healthy. We all have our things to do but I'm gonna miss my muse! Travelling have been my muse for a long time and given me a lot of inspiration but I also need to find inspiration and patience to everyday, not all the days are crazy fun.

I promise you that I will never be satisfied with a life in Sweden when there are so much to see and learn in other places all around world. Travelling is a good brain-exercise so I'm going for the world, and with these words I'm closing this chapter even if it is a little bit abrupt. Goodnight.

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